We are only promised today
 Mrs Carolyn Dodson 07/12/1940 - 03/25/2017 |
One is Carolyn Dodson, an old friend who I once engaged with my child's mind in an effort to understand people and places much better.
She is lost to me forever and the grief I sustain within my heart is something I've had difficulty relinquishing.
Despite my best efforts to regain the past it remains relegated to that time which has transpired — for "maybe tomorrow" ultimately becomes that awareness of the fact that we are only promised today.
It adds to the unworthiness which sometimes permeates my being when I recall all those moments I planned to stop by yet did not.
It multiplies the remorse of not saying what I needed to say.
We get very few friends during our journey through life ...
Much less those REAL friends such as the Dodsons and others I can no longer reach out to and embrace for all they have meant to me.
The good intentions were there but the reality was distinctly lacking.