Trying to make it up to God
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Fall short? I keep falling off a cliff.
It's no wonder winning the lottery eludes me. I have read of so many who have prayed to God and won while I have reached the point that I know there's no need mentioning it.
However, I remain stalwart in my belief that "God hears all prayers" ... Even if the answer is "no".
So I attempt to speak to God most every day. I share my hopes and fears, my dreams and aspirations. I attempt to understand Him and want Him to understand me.
Even though he knows all things from the beginning throughout the Eternity there is still that glowing ember which was the soul of a little boy so long ago.
That child who knew he was forgiven and fell asleep in the confidence of salvation despite his imperfections.
That jaded adult which he became not withstanding; I seek a more innocent moment in time which I shall never regain.
So I simply abide and speak my mind as best I can. I attempt to remain civil and reverent to a degree and hope that when all is said and done that I am not cast into the lake of fire.
I think I know the answer to the pertinent questions regarding His elect. I'm just not at all sure that I qualify for that connotation.
Regardless, all I can be is a man like all the others. Flawed more or less and just trying to get though this thing called life without wasting so much as I have up to now.
It's a difficult matter to pursue spirituality and be the profane person that I am. However, I'm working on it ... still.
I who claim to be Christian have hurt others.
Others who claim to be Christian have hurt me.
We'll just have to see what that tally is at the white throne and just who indeed are the deceived with their claims of impending 'rapture' regardless of how unBiblical it all may be.
Our works are all that accompany us to the hereafter. Mine are pretty shabby.