Reflections
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It is a difficult matter to cope with the many losses which accumulate over a lifetime and coming to terms with this is a priority — albeit a sad duty indeed.
My personal difficulties revolve around that suffering he endured during his decline and the futile attempts to save him which simply caused much more of it.
This has tempered my life in the notion that heroics are sometimes not the best avenue and regardless of how we feel consideration of what others must go through to accommodate us is much more important in the circle of life.
In retrospect I would have done things much differently to be younger and know what I know now.
Imparting this to my nephew who continues his existence as an emotional infant rapidly approaching age 40 in the presence of all those problems he creates for his parents are equally distressing. I suppose that I can't be wishing to impart experience in the activities of daily living where they are unwanted so I remain silent.
Rest in peace, daddy. I have missed you all these years.