Ne dis jamais jamais
 Sean Connery as James Bond in Never Say Never Again |
I was also on the outskirts of idiocy with my recovery coming full circle in the next couple of years.
My dramatic behaviors and associated theatrics were the stuff of legend in my large circle of friends and one of those things I consider to be the advent of maturity was removal of the phonies and the drug dealers and those thorns in my existence who were there to be humored or otherwise take undue advantage of my good nature.
So I batted around various thoughts of life and career and those portends of schizophrenogenic human interactions diminished with the exclusion of crook physicians, purpetrators of medicare and other insurance fraud, and the charletains they utilized in their practices.
I left "plan A" for the self sufficiency of "plan B" and have remained there in favor of popping a cap in the head of some two faced user which formerly predominated my existence.
Still, I had to contend with matters of reputation, the earning of dollars, and various aspects of career to the point of distraction at times ...
But I persevered and moved onward and upward through the fog.
Then there was the removal of all recreational drugs cold turkey.
I figured it would be this insurmountable end to my existence because the workplace was now pushing pre-employment drug testing the very thought of which filled me with fear and foreboding.
Luckily when you make up your mind to do better this is likely what will transpire and I gave it all up without a single episode of withdrawal.
This has pretty much been the case since those early 1980s efforts and I find my brain began functioning better from a standpoint of dexterity and memory retrieval almost immediately.
I certified in everything as a matter of conscience until that point when I realized that computer vendors and schools tout "certification" as a matter of revenue generation. They never helped me a single iota in the field. All the certified "professionals" who couldn't do the work after their bootcamp test passing simply flooded the field with incapable techies and thusly, I rose to the very top of the field.
For when the PhDs were found lacking. When the masters degree holders proved incompetent. I could perform the technical duties quickly and correctly.
So in the presence of pedigreed individuals sporting nothing but ineptitude they were let go while I was retained.
The naysayers be damned. The friends who said I'd never get hired. The coworkers saying "you don't have a degree" were far beneath my subject matter expertise and hardware skills.
Never Say Never.
Never Say Never
Never, never, never say never
Ne dis jamais jamais
Better, better believe in forever
And it can be that way
You think that you could never love again
The one time really tore you apart
So don't even try to touch your heart
You're never going to give it again
Never, never, never say never
Ne dis jamais jamais
Better, better believe in forever
And it can be that way
You think that too much joy can only bring pain
Before you know it, it can be gone
But give me a chance to prove you're wrong
You'll never say never again
Never, never, never say never
Ne dis jamais jamais
Better, better believe in forever
And it can be that way
Take time to smell the roses
Don't hold back your one chance
It hardly lasts, it hardly lasts
Better, better believe in forever
Out here I stand with my heart in my hand
My hopes on a wing and a prayer
I must have been born with a hole in my head
Cause I've never said these things before
Never, never, never say never
Ne dis jamais jamais
Better, better believe in forever
And it can be that way
Lyrics by Tommy Shaw
Peformed by Styx on the album Cornerstone
1979