Cursing and Intelligence
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First of all, I would like to point out that I'm as smart as the next guy and I likely curse much more. I attribute this to my sailor days and much to my chagrin find that the coarse language has never left me since those days.
When my language embarassed those around me I was unable to key in on any of that and cursed right on. Nowadays I have rants of intermittent cursing and I think badly of myself for doing it.
This is due to my opinion that a person curses because they can't formulate verbiage otherwise to relate what's on their mind. The saddest part of this is what I feel is an excellent vocabulary simply laid waste by a propensity for bad words even in polite company.
How does one make amends for such reprehensible behavior in the absence of any remorse which survives "the now" into the consciousness of daily living ?
In a word, one doesn't. One only tries to do better at another time.
Thusly I continue this vicious cycle which I'm working on however feeble and lackluster appearances may be ... for I am just a man. I don't claim to be much anymore and I suppose the language is evidence for my diminished attempts at being that to which I might aspire.
Could it be that I've just given up ?