I've had my share of love's ups and downs. I once thought that God had neglected to pick out a girl for me; but in retrospect, there have been many and it was I who allowed them to pass by the wayside.
It occurs to me that in all of the prospects I've had in life I was the disinterested party by and large. Yeah, I've known my share of rejections as well but in the sum total of this interpersonal thing I've managed to maintain a grip on the wherefore and the why.
Regrets, sure there are a few and I am reticent to mention them due to the ancient history aspect they now hold. Besides, I've always viewed 'kiss and tell' and other aspects of amore gone awry in extremely poor taste.
Likewise, it's purely amazing that I should allow myself to be so picky in the sum total of who I am and where I've been.
Nowadays I'm just too darn old to be pursuant of some relationship which will only prove to be less satisfying than the "right now" encounters I now enjoy on an intermittent basis — so yes ... the fray, the game, the hunt simply no longer floats my boat.
Intimacy motive refers to recurrent preferences or readiness to experience warmth, closeness, and communicative interaction with other people. This is a fundamental flaw with my interpersonal relationships anymore. I no longer have an intimacy motive to speak of. It appears that I vastly prefer casual encounters and distance to what I'm encountering otherwise with those whose tastes differ.
In other words I'm just not much into courting anymore.
I think it's fine for others to either want or not to wish to be in a relationship. However, often some of these people have a concurrent wish to be pursued ... you know, wined and dined and coddled and I'm afraid that the environments are too diparate to the point that my shields go up and poof — I'd rather just avoid the mess altogether.
Now, were I some pimply high school harry all ushy, gushy, mushy, and touchie feelie it would be different. At this late stage of the game I'm content to just jump in there, engage in something casual and meaningless, then jump out and on to the next thing to be encountered.
I'm also quite partial to cash and carry type girls who are motivated come and go as they please.
Perhaps it's just some internal cynical spin of mine. Maybe one game playing female too many. Regardless I'm certainly not in the mood for any triviality and this is all relationships have to offer me at this juncture.
Therefore, I'd just as soon pass. Thanks, but no thanks. It didn't have to be that way, but it's how things turned out. The terms for getting all cuddly have simply become too severe.
Love can make you happy
Wake up in the morning with the sunshine in your eyes
And the smell of flowers blooming fills the air
Your mind is filled with the thoughts of a certain someone - that you love
Your life is filled with joy when she is there
Love can make you happy if you find someone who cares
To give a life time to you and who has a love to share
If you think you've found someone you'll love forevermore
Then it's worth the price you'll have to pay
To have, to hold's important when forever is the phrase
That means the love you've found is going to stay
Love can make you happy if you find someone who cares
To give a life time to you and who has a love to share
love, love
Love can make you happy
Love can make you happy
Love can make you happy
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