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July 21, 2017
Help Recovering from Addiction
brain addicted

I have ambivalent feelings regarding addiction recovery. Having been involved with substance abuse from my extremely late teens through my early 40s I am well versed with having "the monkey on your back".

This being said, I recovered from both recreational drug and tobacco addictions cold turkey. I simply awoke one day determined to stop using and thereby ended my need for both the stimulus barrier of cigarettes (I was a Marlboro man) and recreational altered consciousness (alcohol, pot, pills, shrooms, etc).

I have been amused with the various commercials for addiction recovery professionals claiming that "nobody can beat addiction by themselves".

My "addictive personality" and hunger for a reality outside of the world in which I dwelled was something I viewed as an insurmountable obstacle to ridding myself of the scourge of dealing with a bunch of drug dealers and living through the fog of diminished cognitive capacity because of the half lives of some of the items I consumed with great gusto.

Not to be insensitive but since that time so many years ago when I put EVERYTHING down in the non prescription drug habits I once felt were so essential to my life my tolerance for those who claim that addiction has taken everything from them has diminished somewhat over the years.

My "preachy phase" having left a good while back, I am hesitant to get into any debates regarding what I think about drug addiction because it is met with a certain attitude projecting a "cold bastard" opinion toward me by and large. Besides, I'm not really concerned with your addiction status anyway — as long as I'm not responsible for your bills.

My personal feelings regarding alcoholism, recreational drug use, and those problems associated with lifestyles which cannot support the never ending supply due to those inverse effects addiction has on income are thus:

1.You became the addict by your own habits, the addict was not always you.
2.Taking responsibility for your actions is the first step.
3.Deciding that drugs and alcohol are not for you is the second step.
4.Cessation of those additions to your life requires a firm committment.
5.Though I never backslid once, I felt that if I had I would simply restart from where I was in the process.
6.As for addiction recovery institutions and associated "professionals" ... I never needed them and neither do you.


People may think I am cold and distant from these human problems that plague many. All I can say is these are the result of a failure to accept responsibility for your lives and pursuing some addiction professional isn't going to do that for you.

I prefer a life without crutches and some commercial saying "you can't beat addiction by yourself, no one can" is about as irresponsible and untrue as it gets. Responsibility for your life begins in that place between your ears and behind your eyes.
 

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July 20, 2017
Gays and the former Eastern Bloc
gay bashing    
The former communist states of eastern Europe, including Yugoslavia and Albania, as well as the countries of the Warsaw Pact have meld into individual portions of populace with the same attitudes and preconceived notions of the old iron curtain eastern bloc days gone by.

I was reading about some of the current ideology regarding gays and the utter denial of their existence in much of the region coupled with those horror stories replete with videos which surface now and then.

Given the decidedly hostile attitudes in Russia, Chechnya, Ukrane, and so forth I suppose it's only natural that the gay people flock to countries somewhat less predisposed to murdering them all and allowing to rot where they drop on the streets. They're not even human beings according to Ramzan Kadyrov, the leader of Chechnya and his attitudes pervade those from the region with whom I occasionally interact.

Now then, I suppose I might be a lot less demanding with such a large sector of the population out to exterminate you like so much vermin.

I view the gay person as an endangered species. I'm not so inclined not to recognize them as human beings as some apparently are — but I sure wouldn't be going around getting too proud in celebrations and parades based on what I'm reading in some of the so-called "mainstream" press.

Perhaps it's all fake news anyway.

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July 19, 2017
Censorship in China
disappearing china
China censors are bragging about the ability to delete images in transit from sender to receiver ... with it's disappearance happening prior to those on the receiving end ever seeing them.

Now then, that's a censorship with hooks in the very mechanisms utilized by those SMS and social media modalities which should make you shudder with the portends of that which is to come.

I do know that were I in a situation I perceived as such I would routinely turn my phone off unless calling. I would maintain silence over wifi and GPS by cracking cases of my internet things and snipping GPS antennas — likely a few others.

The care I will subsequently take in choosing phones and such will be influenced by all the horror stories I read.

Why then do we buy the bulk of our consumer electronics from China where the installation of backdoors to every device is likely routine?

When the NSA decides that passive listening with decode is no longer adequate and that it must install itself in the actual equipment as an active filter of the data path I suppose I'll just have to disconnect all of my equipment and be a lot lower tech than I am presently.

One thing is sure. My requirement for redundant firewalls just went up and my need to firewall China continues at the usual 100% of discovered networks.

Talk about overstepping goons in government. Why don't they just move to North Korea with their technogoon kinsman Mr Kill Jong-un.

Boo!

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July 18, 2017
Murder is on the rise in the US
skull    
Lawd I don't know what's got into people lately. Every time I get off on a information fix I'm finding a preponderance of murder cases all over the place. I could even go so far as to say I was thinking about making it the blogs topic instead of my primarily techie thematic element.

Some of the reasons for our fellows killing our other fellows have been quite far up the "lame" scale to say the least. I have only found one "justifiable homicide" in the area in recent months and she choked the crap out of him with the cord of a set of blinds.

Either he was pretty wimpy or she's wonder woman.

The bottom line here is we may wish to consider our motivations prior to stepping out and bludgeoning our neighbor like a baby harp seal.

Can't we DISAGREE without going quite to that extreme of disagreement ?

My personal views include just holing myself up here at the hermitage rather than getting involved with all that messy plotting and figuring out where to hit and how ...

In other words, I'd just as soon live and let live even though I may hate great numbers of you. You simply are not worth my time for litigation, judicial proceedings, lethal injections, and so on and so forth.

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July 17, 2017
World Emoji Day 2017
emoji

An emoji is a picture ... a small digital icon or other image which expresses some idea or emotional construct — and is used in electronic communication modalities such as email and SMS (texting and chat) applications.

Having never been a real 'fan' of emojis I'm afraid that I've always viewed them as one of those cutesy manifestations of pop culture and have typically excluded them from my e-communications for that very reason.

The emoji is said to be the "brainchild" (sic) of one Jeremy Burge who obviously embraces these tidbits of feelings ... and I would likely feel like planting my foot up his trivial ass if I ever met the guy — but also, to each their own.

Today has been declared "World Emoji Day" and is an observance celebrated today. The orignators call this day "a global celebration of emoji" with that being held in the various forums and social media outlets rather than 'in the streets' as it were ...

Oh well, I suppose there's enough room for all the whimsy we can stand in our electronic life.

meh
 

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July 16, 2017
Mr & Mrs JFK Jr RIP
Mr and Mrs JFK Jr
John F. Kennedy Jr.
November 25, 1960 - July 16, 1999

Carolyn Bessette-Kennedy
January 7, 1966 - July 16, 1999

Rest in peace

Living your life under the scrutiny of the public eye must be a difficult matter. Even when that attention consists primarily of adoration there is a need for refuge from the crowds and the photographs and the utter lack of privacy which some crave.

John Fitzgerald Kennedy, Jr and Carolyn Besette Kennedy were a couple celebrated widely and darlings of the paparazzi. With that comes a certain surrender of self to a public which is both adoring and fickle as evidenced by the various ends of disucssion which lends credence to the notion observed by some that is better to be out of the limelight.

I was five when JFK Jr was born. I pretty much was abreast of what he and Caroline were doing as it related to the public aspects of their lives. Never in my existence did I ever feel that either of them were particularly fond of that public life and indeed, were I in their places I would shun the media entirely.

All-in-all I wish that John Jr and Carolyn Bessette were still here working on their issues together and coming to some consensus regarding what is right for them. Instead, their earthly time ended on this day in 1999 as the result of an aircraft accident off of Martha's Vineyard — a place I spent a fair amount of time visiting and admiring.

Mrs Kennedy's sister, Lauren Bessette was also lost in that accident. She was not a public figure and probably preferred it that way.

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July 15, 2017
Incompetence in Forgery
Lorem ipsum dolor sit    
Ars Technica has a hilarious article on a case of forgery discovered due to an anachronistic font in use. It said that the forger had prepared a lovely set of Microsoft Word documents containing the necessary forged content and presented these in accordance with those status quo activities of skullduggery.

It seems that the forged documents were done up so prettily in a font which didn't make it to the world for years after the forged dates supplied in the text. The moral of the story is if you're going to go to the trouble to forge documents with a word processor you need to make sure that those technical aspects which may stand legal scrutiny can indeed do so.

Things like the font, the ink or toner, the paper, that printer identity encoding you can't easily see to find ... you know; things with which a court of law under the examination of a competent forensic science person might have a field day.

Absolutely stupefying dain brammage if you ask me. I would never have gone there.

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July 14, 2017
Password Sharing cutting into Streaming Provider Bottom Line
    streaming everywhere

Ah, the sharing of passwords. The Netflix, HBO, and other providers of streaming video are beginning to do metrics on the IP addresses using the same credentials and I believe a few of them have gone into a bit of a snit.

That sharing which is okay in a household is winding up all over the place and the whois database has clearly indicated a penchant for over sharing is becoming somewhat rampant.

I recall a family member offering to share a password with me. I didn't go for it because I envisioned just such a scenario as this where unauthorized account sharing was being noticed by those getting paid for the streaming services.

I suppose my understanding of researching networks and locating the owner of a specific IP addres on the net didn't hurt either.

Be all of this as it may I feel that a change is in the making for those service agreements which heretofore have been quite generous with the machine streams and we'll likely see a lot more authentication prior to the streaming process beginning in the future.

The surveys taken of password sharing are showing a shift across age groups with 18 to 24 year olds at 21%, 25 to 34 year olds claiming 15%, and 35 years and older comprising about 8% of the shared passwords in the streaming industry.

Some of the services do not wish to devote time and trouble to research so there may be a lag in the inevitable crack down ... so we'll just have to see how it all goes !

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July 13, 2017
Twits Sue President over Blocked Twitter
Mr Trump and Twitter

    
So ... a group of Twitter users are suing him and two of his aids because they've been blocked.

Their argument is that his account is a public forum and since he is a governmental official it is thereby illegal to block anyone.

These people want it declared as unconstitutional and the privision of an injunction requiring the president to unblock these (and future other) Twitter users.

Well then, I believe that all Twitter users are allowed to use the blocks available to them and that Mr Trump is entitled to use all of the facilities of his account as he sees fit.

It is certainly not surprising that some idiot collegiate educational institution meddler into the affairs of citizens is coordinating this attack in the best traditions of the bleeding heart liberal and so-called "progressive" individuals they likely are.

However, what remains are the fundamental rights of a Twitter user which includes blocking harassing users focused upon them.

I think Mr Trump can do as he pleases. I also hope these Columbia University shenanigans might influence him to drop the Twitter account altogether because I'm bloody sick of his use of it.

Regardless @realDonaldTrump or @POTUS he still controls that presence and ... whatever will be will be.

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July 12, 2017
Some 4 in 10 Americans Harassed Online
Stop Cyber-Bullying and Harassment

Reuters had a thought provoking article by Angela Moon regarding the number of persons harassed online at (a fairly shocking) 41% with the bulk of those happening as the result of social media.

I felt that the base events qualifying as "harassment" to be somewhat wimpy with 'offensive name calling' and 'embarrassment' with those more serious forms such as 'physical threats', sexual harrassment, and stalking holding at about 20%.

Personally, I'm somewhat at a loss as to why someone would "go there" in any social media venue for the purposes stated in the online harrassment data in the presence of superior tracking mechanisms opposed to typically low tech hothead approaches to this type of behavior.

In the presence of perceived danger the authorities should be in the loop but most of what I've seen is some troll venting agitation over specific incidents of expressed opinion more or less.

In any case I note that there are few who will engage me in comments here and I attribute this to my ability to back myself against the wall and engage all who would approach.

These harassing incidents would be farther and fewer between in the presence of granular control at the recipients end ... such as that I have at my disposal.

Then there are the notions of engaging someone likely to embarass you back and the proverbial 'bringing a stick to a gun fight' which come to mind when I'm in the mood to let someone know where to get off in no uncertain terms.

Yes, my harassment is primarily hack attempts and exploits but at this fourth iteration of the blog and those servers which go with it I have amassed some fairly effective scripting and control files to throw into the mix.

Needless to say, if you're so inclined to come here and harass me by all means go for it as long as you understand the nature of consequences, countermeasures, and retaliation.
 

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July 11, 2017
Buffarillos R Us
David the Supersized

 

 


We have become a nation of obeasts.

Well ... I've always been one — but too many of you others have joined the ranks and now those thunder thighs go boom boom boom down the sidewalk or rub panty hose going switch switch switch together to the point that Ive started walking in an attempt to leave this company yet again ...

Last time I shaped up was just outside of the navy when I went crazy for the heat and sweat of the roadwork.

Now I just walk around in an attempt not to stroke out or go into cardiac arrest from the exertion.

Suffice it to say I likely have less weight to loose, per se and more shaping up to do in the spirit of that "big ugly bag of mostly water" I must have become yet again.

I hope you do well in your pursuits be they something you construe as improvement ... or maintenance of the status quo if that floats your boat.

I think my alarm stems from the profuse sweating I've been doing at the drop of a hat since the weather turned so hot and humid round about the end of May.

Hopefully I'll lose this alarmed state soon.




 

 

 

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July 10, 2017
Nikola Tesla Day
    Tesla elderly

Tesla younger

    
Today is the birthday of one of the singularly advanced intellects ever to grace the planet Earth.

Today is Tesla's birthday and marked by many as World Tesla Day, Nikola Tesla Day, or simply, Tesla Day in honor of that auspicious moment for science and technology on July 10, 1856 in Smiljan, Croatia.

I cannot really celebrate the day so much as note and celebrate the man — for during the course of his life some of the most profound discoveries in science were made.

His personal effects including personal papers from the vault were confiscated by the government of the United States upon his death on January 7, 1943 at the Wyndham New Yorker Hotel in New York City, NY ... likely the work of MJ12 or some other shadow government element which assumed control of the United States during the loss of control by the Eisenhower administration.

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July 9, 2017
Time just gets away from us
    Mattie Ross reflecting while returning from paying her respects at the grave of Rooster Cogburn
I was watching True Grit on some broadcast network when the 40 year old Mattie Ross reflecting while returning from paying her respects at the grave of Rooster Cogburn quipped "Time just gets away from us".

In that hustle and bustle associated with paying the bills and taking care of business it has been one of those hallmarks of my life that others come and go before I've really had time to notice and the rush of the workaday world is relentless with that need to chase the almighty dollar.

Just the other day it ocurred to me how many I haven't seen for so long that we're more than alienated ... I no longer know them; our intersecting circles having parted long ago.

It's a shame how that party animal I once professed to be has devolved into this being whose entire life revolves around getting up and going to work or making preparations for getting up and going to work.

How I yearn for those days when I had places to go and people to see. That reality which is our 21st century schizoid world does not appear to be firing those retros of past good times and absent friends regardless of that yearn which oozes from my soul from time to time.

I'm satisfied with who I am and what I'm doing. It's just that the finality of business is becoming the last word in my existence as well.

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July 8, 2017
The Myth of Fat Shaming
belly    
Oh the memories from my childhood. Having been a fat kid long before it became a national tragedy I was all too aware of fat shaming by my peers. Like that from the superficial idiot slug Steve Stoneburner at Goose Creek High School along with the rest of the contemptuous brain dead others I encountered in that smelly navy brat infested bung hole of the planet earth ...

Earlier, I recall the lady minding the school store at Horace O'Bryant Junior High and her all too smug attitude looking down upon me with my fatness and acne when she could barely keep those rolls of fat ladled upon that oak stool she had shoved half way between those gigantic buttocks reeking of disdain and self righteous indignation at the thought of being in my unworthy bluborious presence ...

butt cheeks not withstanding.

I attained a high degree of fitness in my early 20s but never forgot nor forgave the past. This resulted in an aloofness which raises it's ugly head on occasion — evolving into blatant hostility should the need arise. And it has.

So now, it's not so easy to fat shame me. Yeah, I'm pretty hefty but so many more are heavier (or not) but carry that weight with much more difficulty. It seems that the belly fat of metabolic syndrome is not so predominate as the gelatinous rolls so prevalent today and the chinage, love handles, and guts and gunts which appear in our midst everywhere.

I don't care if you're fat. I don't care if you're ugly. However you appear simply cannot affect me because of my history. If your appearance suits you who am I to be concerned with it? The health aspects of overweight are not such the priority with me as they were with almost everyone surrounding me when I was a child. Though indeed some level of morbidity may be present ... it simply cannot own me anymore.

It would seem that the cholesterol lowering agents and the reductase inhibitors do a pretty good job at diluting that crisco blood of mine and the fat is far less visible than it was — because it's visceral; the most dangerous kind. I don't wear a lot of external fat anymore compared to my younger days.

Be all of this as it may I am content to make whatever progress I can and I dare anyone to call me down on my girth. You see, I retain quite a "left" and a "right" as well and it is foolhardy to bring some stick to a gun fight.

If the fatter person is you I will allow you to pass unaccosted because that is my life now. You get to be you and I get to be me. If it floats your boat go for it. Those sophomoric criticisms which pervade social media simply lend credence to the notion that it is populated by narcissistic individuals too preoccupied with primping to trim that hair growing from the big wart on the ends of their nose.

You simply can't play the fat card on me anymore. It doesn't work and it will get you hurt ... feelings or otherwise. Just ask the few "kidders" who took the plunge only to regret it.

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