Engineering Love

I read an interesting tidbit about a woman who was so disgruntled with conventional dating that she utilized an algorithm of her own design in conjunction with dating sites to "engineer" 150 some odd dates in four months.

Here is where my age really tells on me. I found the concept of such dating so irrelevant to my personal sphere of existence that all I could do is a sheldon cooperesque scoff of haughty derision and attempt to give it an objective pass through my thought collections.

In that sum total of relationships and who we are, the notion of dense pack dating has about as much attraction for me as two of the same poles of a magnet and though I do indeed think relationships are a worthy pursuit ... seeing how many I have efforted over the years — can I really be one to question another's decidedly empirical approach in all my scientific awareness ?

Those past times spent with various significant others has left me wanting mostly to do those things which do not involve others because of the innumerable ulterior motives I have encountered along the way.

Had just one encounter been with a true kindred spirit or someone who really wanted to know who I am ... or even had a clue when it comes to awareness of those outside the two feet surrounding their bodies it would all have been different.

As it stands, I'm happy to remain single and pursuant of those things I find important to me. However, perhaps the crux of the problem is that I'm just as selfish as all of those whom I engaged.